Monday, January 09, 2006

Life, and all that it entails... (Part 2)

So, it wasn't my original intent for my last post to be so long and negative. I originally intended to end on a happy note but after I started typing, I just kept going and then didn't have time to do any more. So, here's part 2 of the Life, and all that it entails... post.

Life can certainly be cruel, frustrating, annoying, sad and sometimes just downright shitty, but it can also bring great happiness and joy. I'm glad to say that I'm in that upswing of happiness right now and am certainly hoping that it will continue for a long, long time to come. I have a very good friend, Julie, whom I've known for a number of years (going on seven now) and who has always been one of my favorite people and in recent months our relationship has turned into a romantic one. I spent the New Year holiday with her and her family, whom I love being around, and had a wonderful time (and ate lots of great food). So, needless to say, I am quite happy. In fact, the happiest I've been in quite a few years. It's nice having someone to look forward to seeing every day and know that no matter crappy my day at work might have been for the rest of the evening and night things will be wonderful.

So, yeah, I am quite happy with life right now.
Now I just need to get a new, higher paying job...

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Life, and all that it entails...

Some people say that life is what you make it.
I kind of believe that life happens and it's up to you to make the best out of it.

It's been a long time since I've posted anything here or updated my website.
In the shortest possible explanation, life happened and I'm trying to make my way through it.
My mother just passed away unexpectedly a couple months ago of pancreatic cancer, just two years after my older brother was also unexpectedly taken.
Life happened. Now, how to make the most of it?
I can't express how much I'm going to miss my mom.
I'm not an especially religious person but I have very strong spiritual beliefs and I know that my mom and brother have gone on to a better existence but I know that I will never - can never - forget them. There's often times when a song on the radio or a movie that I'm watching will bring up feelings and memories and I can't stop crying. I love those moments.
I can't fathom how much I'll miss them on the day that I marry my wife.
I know that I'll sit with my wife and my newborn child on the day of her birth, hold them extra close and say a silent prayer through my tears of joy knowing that as badly as I wish they could be there with me holding her tiny hand that they are there with me, caressing all of us, and always will be.
As I type this through tears, I will never forget you and never stop loving you.
I miss you mom. I miss you Chris.
I will talk to you soon and await the time that I see you again.
Your son. Your brother.